Chapter 9 Lilian ! Wake up , I haven't forgiven you yet . How could you die ? " Silas's eyes were bloodshot , his voice was unusually hoarse , and he had a touch of madness . The overwhelming sadness flooded my heart in an instant , the pain tearing at my heart and lungs , making every breath feel like it was mixed with glass , especially difficult . He held her in his arms , squeezing her so tightly that he wished he could merge her into his bones , making them completely one . The warm tears rolled down drop by drop , falling on Lilian . Her body was too cold , with a chilling sensation that couldn't be warmed up no matter what . Silas felt as if his heart had plummeted into an ice cellar , and his entire body went cold . Lilian will never come back to life again , the last person he cared about in his world is gone forever . The last bit of meaning and hope he had while alive has now completely disappeared . His world was only left with darkness , no light could penetrate anymore . Lilian , you really are ruthless . His eyes were red , a dead silence in his dark eyes , the smile on his face uglier than crying . " " You left alone , relieved , leaving me alone in this world , what's the point ? If you're going to die , why not take me with you ? " " I don't blame you for what happened back then , okay ? Can you just look at me and let's forget the past and move on , okay ? Please , just consider it a favor to me … " Η Silas was talking non - stop to Lilian as if he were crazy . The woman in his arms fell into eternal sleep , never to respond to him . again . After a long time , he let out a few bitter laughs , his eyes filled with sadness . " Did you not wake up because you wanted me to leave this world with you ? Can I accompany you ? Everything ends here . " With that , he held Lilian in his arms and slowly walked out step by step . The police officer on duty noticed that he was not in the right state and quickly stepped forward to stop him . " Mr. Erelan , please accept my condolences . Even though Ms. Lorvain has passed away , life must go on . We must cherish those who are still living in this world and remember that life is precious . Let's not act impulsively . " Silas's eyes drooped slightly as he signed the death confirmation form for Lilian , his hand trembling uncontrollably . A living person left his world overnight . He left in silence , holding Lilian . But in my heart , I couldn't help but wonder , if he hadn't gone to see Vivian last night , would everything be different ? he hadn't gone , maybe Lilian would be at home now , possibly having reakfast , possibly trimming the flowers , in any case , whatever she was ping , at least she was still alive . nlike now , I could no longer give him any response . ow can there be so many " what ifs " in the world ? fter placing Lilian into the ice coffin , he rested his forehead against it , osed his eyes to hide all despair , and took a deep breath . ' m sorry , I shouldn't have left you there alone . " know you were always afraid of the cold , and you couldn't swim . When ou died in the river , you must have been very scared and cold , right ? ow leaving you in the ice coffin , I feel sorry for you , but I … don't want ou to leave . " e was a bit greedy , because there were still some things left unfinished . e couldn't just leave this world recklessly . o he just wished that she could have stayed with him a little longer . fe hadn't left yet , so she couldn't leave . or a whole day and night , Silas stayed by Lilian's side , without eating or Irinking .