Chapter 10 1288 Vouchers Elliot seemed as if his throat had been seized , unable to utter another word . After a long silence , he finally spoke cautiously : " Vina , over these past five years , I know I've made many mistakes . But no one ever taught me how to distinguish between familial love and romantic love . You have to allow me to make mistakes . " " Now I understand that the one I love is you . Can we start over ? Believe me , I will spend my whole life making it up to you . " His promises sounded so passionate , yet my heart remained utterly unmoved . The ill - fated bond between him and me began with a twist of fate . If it hadn't been for that drugged glass of wine , I would have kept my feelings hidden in my heart , because we were people from two different worlds . I never dared to hope for anything to happen between us . It was only to repay Eloise for saving Amanda that I agreed to become Elliot's cure . During five years of marriage , I was once warmed and lost in his kindness toward me . But repeated hurt shattered those rare moments of surrender completely . Wounds may heal , but the scars will never fade . I looked at him steadily : " Elliot , if someone treated you this way , would you forgive and trust that person ? " " The truth is , we were never from the same world . Because of my humble status , you hurt me without restraint . If I were your equal , would you dare treat me like this ? " " You say you love me , yet this is how you treat me when you love me . If one day you stop loving me , won't I be even more miserable than I am now ? " " Go . If you truly feel guilty , then don't come looking for me again . Let me be free . " As the elevator doors slowly closed , I saw that man with bloodshot eyes , tears streaming down his face . After that , I never saw Elliot again . Yet every night , a Maybach would be parked under my dormitory building , watching my window quietly from midnight until dawn . Later , I was exceptionally promoted by the state and transferred to the northwest to lead technological development . Every one of my research projects received a large sum of anonymous external donations . Later on , I heard that Elliot went to St. Mary's Cathedral every day . But he never took off that simple silver ring on his ring finger . The priest said Elliot's ties to the mortal world were not yet severed . Elliot was afraid of losing the only token that connected them , fearing he would not find that person in the next life . From then on , Elliot prayed every day for the children who had once passed away . 444 I buried Amanda's ashes beneath a tree in the northwest . We would never be separated again . The wind and sand of the northwest brushed against my temples , and my once fair and delicate face became resolute and brave . The past is like smoke - love or hate , it is all bygone . What awaits me now is a new life . 59.39 %