Chapter 20 : . 87 I guess so , sit down Emily . " Jake says quietly , signalling at the table . He doesn't make eye contact with me and I nibble on my bottom lip , silently taking a seat at the table . I feel my hands begin to grow clammy with nerves so I decide to try to make conversation again . " You cook pancakes ? " I ask him , amusement lining my voice . This time he finally turns around , a sheepish grin on his face . He holds the spatula in the air , shrugging a little . " You got me , Jake winks , a sparkle in his eye . A flutter grows inside my stomach and I smile , dropping my eyes to the floor . " Can I have one ? I'm starving . " I admit , holding my stomach . Jake nods and plates two up before dropping them down in front of me . He holds up a bottle of syrup , the muscles in his arms tensing . I try not to stare but it's so hard when he looks so ... Good . " You like syrup ? " " Of course I like syrup , what kind of question is that ? " I tease him , rolling my eyes . Jake shakes his head , biting back a smile before squeezing the syrup all over the pancakes . I take the fork he's offering me and try a small bite , moaning with pleasure from finally eating . It doesn't help that Jake's pancakes are incredibly delicious . I can't remember the last time I had pancakes . When I'm on my third bite , I glance up at Jake , ready to applaud him on his pancake making skills but he's watching me , head tilted to the side . A smirk plays on his lips - " You moan when you eat Muffin ? " I choke on the piece of pancake in my mouth , dropping the fork onto the table . My eyes glare at Jake who begins to splutter with laughter . The blue in his eyes sparkle and despite being mad at him a second ago , I'm not anymore . I laugh alongside him before defending myself . " You make amazing pancakes and I haven't eaten properly for days . This is like heaven to me . " Jake's laughter dies down , the carefree expression on his face disappearing . He pushes the plate towards me silently and I stir in my seat uncomfortably . " Eat as many as you want . " He finally says , breaking the silence between us . He stands up and turns his back to me , running a hand through his wild hair . His shoulders are squared up , full of tension and I know he's thinking about last night . " Emily , can we talk about- " I stop Jake short by shaking my head . ' No , not now . Let me enjoy some food before you grill me over last night . " I explain to him , giving him a small smile . He returns the smile , nodding his head in agreement , I end up spilling every secret to Jake Melvin . Why was it that suddenly things become so real once you say them out loud ? I've only known Jake for a few weeks but I feel like we share an indescribable connection . Jake always listens to me patiently but the thing I value the most about his friendship is that he never judges me ... For anything . I've always been terrified of anyone knowing my secret but when I tell Jake , it's a relief . It feels good for someone else to know the stuff that happens behind my closed door . 1/2 9:04 Tue , Oct 14 B Chapter 20 : We're both in Ivory's living room . I'm on the couch with a blanket draped over me and Jake is laid on the other side , his head propped up on one of the cushions . " Why did you decide to tell me ? " Jake asks me quietly , blue eyes staring straight at me . " I can't take it anymore , there's a constant war inside my head . Do I tell people or do I not? If I do , Trevor will kill me but if I don't , it never stops . All I want is for it to stop . " I reply honestly , looking up at the ceiling to stop the tears from falling . I blink them back , not wanting to cry in front of him . " Why didn't you tell me sooner ? " " I didn't tell you because I haven't told anyone and I've only known you for a few weeks Jake , I had to make sure I can trust you . " I tell him . He slowly nods his head , eyes flashing with surprise . " You trust me ? " Chapter Comments