Chapter 8 07 " I hate her ! " Trevor hisses and I roll my eyes at his immature behaviour . I listen as he murmurs something else , much quieter this time . I can't make out the words but whatever he said causes Mum to grow silent . I frown deeper at the door What is happening ? Moments pass and I hear Trevor retreat back down the stairs , his feet slamming down hard onto the steps in rage . He's leaving me alone ? 88 I swear it to you , I will kill her slowly if she gets in my way again ! " My blood runs cold at his words . My hands begin shaking profusely and I drop my bag to the floor in shock . My phone and clothes spill out but I don't care . I walk over to my bed and slide down onto the floor beside it , feeling my body and mind turn completely numb . Kill me . The thing that disgusted me the most was that my own mother didn't disagree with him . She didn't argue back or stick up for me . A normal mother would call the police , kick him out the house in fear for their daughter's safety . I feel bile rise to the back of my throat and run to the bathroom , nearly missing the toilet bowl . My eyes sting and I let out a tiny gasp , kneeling against the toilet for support . Tears roll down my cheek and I whimper , my entire body shaking in fright . The constant years of abuse finally began to hit me all at once and I fing it impossible to breathe . Every single beating runs through my mind , Trevor's cruel taunts and evil eyes. I have to get away from here . Where would I go ? Trevor would find me . I have no choice , I'm trapped . The thought of Trevor continuing to beat me , ( if not worse ) sent chills running through my entire body . I lay against the cold tiles , pulling my knees to my chest and shivering in fright . " Please God , let this all end . " I cry out , my chest heaving with sobs . My father's face flashes through my mind and I yell out , kicking the wall opposite me in frustration . I know it wasn't his fault but I couldn't help think this wouldn't have happened if he didn't die . " Why Dad , why ?! " I yell at the bathroom ceiling , feeling my cheeks soaked with tears . " Why did you leave me ? " I whimper quietly , tugging at my hair . Despite the strands being locked around my fingers , I feel no pain . Instead my thoughts begin to swirl around my head , going so fast I can barely understand what's going on around me , I feel my sanity slipping away second by second and my heart rate goes insane from fear and anger . My jaw clenches tightly and I tug at my hair harder , feeling anger towards myself . Why am I not strong ? If only I could find the strength to expose Mum and Trevor but I am weak . Ever since my father left me alone in this cruel world , I began to slowly fall apart . A piece of me chipped away day by day and I had come to realise that I didn't even recognise myself anymore . 1/2 B 9:02 Tue , Oct 14 B Chapter 8 I'm a broken shell that was once the loving and fun Emily Wentworth . Its like a sudden switch goes off inside me and I suddenly feel numb . Numb to the pain and heartache taking over my body . The most terrifying emotion a person can feel is absolutely nothing . Feeling nothing means you simply don't care anymore . You don't care about yourself and that is more dangerous than someone holding a gun at your temple , ready to shoot . You feel no fear , no anger , no pain . 1 slump backwards against the tiles , my eyes staring straight ahead in a daze . I don't know how long I remain like that . I don't know whether it's minutes , hours or days . Eventually my eyes flicker shut and I see darkness . I fall into a sleep , feeling absolutely nothing . Chapter Comments 18 Write Comments SHARE