Chapter 908: 2 Million Words - Want to Chat with Everyone About Recent Matters This book started in late December last year, and now after more than ten months, it has reached 2 million words. This update speed should be considered relatively fast throughout the entire Tomato platform. I think this should give some accountability to readers who constantly complain about my slow writing. Maybe you'll still criticize regardless, but I have a clear conscience. Since this book started gaining traction in April, it hasn't been short of criticism. At first, people criticized me for being psychologically dark, anti-human and anti-social. Later on, the criticism mostly shifted to accusing me of writing filler content, something that continues to this day with daily "friendly" greetings from many readers across my various accounts. There were two major controversies. The first was when I stated that for every 0.1 increase in rating, I would add three bonus chapters to boost the score. Some people deliberately twisted this, saying it was three bonus chapters per day for every 0.1 increase. The other time was when I offered bonus chapters for gifts, which led to accusations of "shamelessness" and "not deserving gifts." To be honest, despite all this, I know most readers are supporting me. The data for this book is the best proof. However, I want to apologize here - not to the anti-fans, but to the readers who have consistently supported me. I'm 28 this year, graduated from university at 21, and have seven years of life experience. I thought I had strong psychological resilience. But spending every single day being criticized, constantly walking on thin ice, has led to almost daily insomnia in the second half of this year. I'm not that strong - the accumulated malice has broken through my psychological defenses. I started writing in 2019 and only achieved some success this year. Before this, my highest writing record was a single book at 2 million words, and I had never written apocalyptic fiction before. A chance opportunity opened this door for me, giving me the chance to write a popular novel. I've been trembling with fear, thinking every day about how to write this book well, creating exciting and original plots. For the past six months, I've barely gone out. Every day was either thinking about plots or writing. But due to my own lack of ability, what I write continues to be criticized. Tʜe sourcᴇ of thɪs content ɪs 𝙣𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙡⚑𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙚⚑𝙣𝙚𝙩 I'm sorry, but I can only admit that it's my capability that's lacking, making the subsequent plots feel like filler and unpleasant to read. But I genuinely haven't been slacking off, and I've truly done my best. However, perhaps because I'm too straightforward and easily offend people, I've always received the worst criticism. Well then, that small group of anti-fans, you win. My health has also developed problems. I now suffer from insomnia and need sleeping pills to sleep. The author himself comes from a rural background, and not afraid of being laughed at, my family conditions are quite poor. Now that I've returned to my hometown, wanting to use the little royalty income I've earned to renovate the family house, but even rural renovations come with their own set of troubles. Then every day when I open the comments, it's like being stabbed with various knives. I admit defeat. I can't take it anymore. I'm not that strong. I've also come to understand that no matter how hard I try, the criticism I deserve won't decrease by even a sentence. So, let's just call it quits. Money can't be earned completely. I don't want to make myself sick, so I need to rest for a while. Live streaming on Douyin will be significantly reduced going forward, and the gift-for-bonus-chapters activity will continue until the end of this month, then be canceled starting next month. The author himself comes from a rural background, and I'm not afraid to admit that my family conditions are quite poor. Tomato's veteran readers know that when a book reaches high word counts, authors typically slow their updates to maximize earnings. The money from gifts really isn't that much for top authors. If you check other authors' update volumes, you should understand this point. This month's commitments will still be honored. I happen to have about forty chapters in reserve, which should cover the recent bonus chapters and the promised mass update events. I need to rest for a while, adjust my emotions, and calmly think about the plot instead of being busy every day and making myself so exhausted. Oh yes, I also have a Douyin account. Feel free to come criticize me there. Let those who criticize me get their satisfaction, then I'll block you. Don't come with passive-aggressive comments saying my writing is poor - I'll treat everyone equally. I know my writing is poor - please understand, but I'm begging you here not to go there and disgust me. Since I've said this much, if you still go there, then don't blame me. Rest, I need to rest for a while. I'll return after I've adjusted my condition. During the rest period, there will still be the usual two daily updates. Thank you to the friends who have consistently supported me.