Chapter 5 " I told you I'm not coming back . Stop calling mer " ] Hearing that familiar voice , tears immediately poured from my eyes . " Mommy- " ] " Mommy , it's Claire . Mommy … " I called to her over and over , but there was silence on the other end . Afraid she wouldn't listen to me , I said everything at once . " Claire should have stayed put and waited for Mommy . I shouldn't have disobeyed and chased the butterfly . " [ ] My stomach hurt more and more . The air I breathed out felt scalding , making my head throb . " Mommy , my stomach hurts . My whole body hurts . My brothers miss you too . Mommy , when are you coming back ? " I asked carefully . I heard soft sobbing on the other end . [ ] " Mommy's not coming back . " ] " Your daddy will take good care of you . Next time , don't use being sick to trick Mommy , okay ? " ] ] " Children who lie won't be loved . " [ ] Mom's voice was familiar - she didn't immediately ignore me . I hurriedly sat up straight . " I'm not lying . " [] " My brothers don't like me . " ] " Daddy even called me a thief . " " Mommy , I've learned to be good . I won't chase butterflies anymore , and I won't disobey you . Can you take me with you ? " || Mom's voice suddenly became stern . [ ] " I said I'm not coming back . " "Tell your dad to stop wasting his time . " ] I didn't understand . " But Mominy , I'm so hungry . My brothers won't let me out . Claire would be like the little hamster - buried in the dut . " The voice on the other end became sharp - Mom was angry . " I said I don't want you call your father ! " " Also , it's not because you chased the butterfly and were bad that I don't want you . I just don't want you ! I don't want any of you anymore ! Understand ? " Mommy didn't want me ? Mommy didn't want me anymore . My hand slowly dropped . I didn't even notice when the screen went dark . [ ] That little bit of light gradually disappeared before my eyes . [] It wasn't because I wasn't good . ] Even if I became good . Mommy still wouldn't come back . They were all liars . [ ] They lied to me . I screamed and cried , my wails echoing through the basement . I cried until I had no strength left . My throat hurt too , and I collapsed on the ground and fell asleep . [ ] My brain was was more chaotic than when Mom got angry and smashed the entire bedroom . [ ] Sometimes it was my brothers who liked to torment me - they liked blocking me , not letting me pass , liked seeing me scared , liked watching me cry . When I cried , they laughed . Sometimes it was Mom standing behind me , watching me chase the butterfly with her own eyes as she walked away in the opposite direction . Sometimes it was Dad slapping me to the ground , his eyes cold and disgusted [ ] Sometimes it was Mom's voice , like it was amplified through a speaker , growing louder and louder in my ears . " It's not because you're not good - it's because we don't want you anymore , understand ? " ] I woke up crying from the nightmare . ] ] When I opened my eyes , I was still in the basement . ] Everything around me was too dark to see my own hand . ] I was too hungry to crawl up . I reached out trying to grab something , but there was nothing - 1 couldn't reach anything . I guess I really was hated by everyone A lated child . Just like that ugly , dark little hamster. ] Bullied by the other hamsters in the cage . ] Finally having to hide in a corner . Waiting for its body to go stiff , then for the teacher to dig a hole and bury it . [ ] Something in my small chest was jumping , like it wanted to leap out of my body . The tiny light in the basement gradually slipped away from my eyes . ] ] This time , I finally didn't feel hurt anymore … ] Om