Chapter 37 -Cameron 255 vouchers After what feels like an eternity , the mansion is finally quiet . Sarah's guests have all left and the staff is done with the necessary clean up that follows every gathering of her socialite friends . Kelly's asleep and feeling better now . She might not need to go to the hospital after all . Even so , I feel uneasy . My mind is still reeling from the call from a moment ago . I'm not sure what to make of it yet . It has to be some kind of mix - up . Maybe the records haven't been updated as they should . Unreasonable as it sounds even to my own ears . I want to clear it up with Sarah , but I can already guess she's too drunk to give a reasonable explanation . The mere possibility that Sarah might have been lying to me about our daughter for a year has already eaten into my mind , and doubts I've never entertained before have begun to blossom . If she's even lying about Kelly's appointments , what else is she lying about ? I'm probably overthinking it . Sarah will have a good reason and I'll end up finding it amusing that I'd been this bothered in the first place . I try to convince myself to think positively , but it's not working out so well . If there's one trait Blackwoods are raised with , it's the fact that we don't fully trust anybody , except our own selves . I've had many reasons to be suspicious of Sarah , but I've given her the benefit of the doubt time and time . again . Even if Sarah and I have been married for three years , I'm not blind to the drastic changes she's been showing since she got the title of Luna Blackwood . I only pretend I don't see it because she hasn't dared to act out of place with me yet . But if she's actually deceived me ... about anything ... Lifting a hand , I rub my temple to ease the ache in my head . Maybe if I do it for long enough , I can also erase the thoughts in my head . But the thoughts don't go away . I don't think they will until I verify it myself . My study is dimly lit and I'm sitting behind the desk , staring at a pile of documents I haven't been able to focus on for the past half of an hour . The pen in my hand clatters as I drop it , exhaling a breath of annoyance . Reaching for my phone , I ring my third in command Vincent . While Josh is my beta , he and Sarah get along . It's the exact opposite with Vincent . 18:47 Mon , Oct 13 Chapter 37 28 4 55 vouchers He's detested her since the first moment he laid eyes on her and even moved out of the estate to be as far as possible . He's precisely the man for the job . " Alpha ? " Vincent's voice sounds from the other end . " Vincent . I need you to verify something for me ... " I hesitate , contemplating on if this is the right thing to do rather than just asking Sarah . Shaking off my hesitation , I continue . " I want to know Sarah's exact whereabouts from the day of Kelly's last few appointments . " " The Luna ? " Vincent sounds surprised by my order , but he quickly adjusts his response . " I'll get it done immediately . Who should I report to ? " Josh is my right hand man and almost everything that gets to me passes through him . But I don't think there's a need for too many people to be in on this . " Directly to me ." I say . I'm about to hang up but I hesitate . " Also ... look into Laila . " I add . Vincent is quiet for a moment . " Laila ? And not Kael ? " He asks uncertainly . " You heard me . " I reply in a clipped tone . " I'll get to it immediately . Do you have any particular ... requests ? " Vincent asks . I don't respond immediately . I'm not even sure why I'm putting eyes on Laila . She's Kael's wife now ... but I just can't shake off the feeling that she's not with Kael out of her own will . And if there's anything my brother has on her to keep her stuck by his side , I can't just let it slide. I have to help her get away from him ... she's only Kael's victim because of me . " Anything ... " I pause , " Everything . " The door creaks open but I don't turn . I already know who it is before I hear her voice . " You're still awake ." Sarah murmurs , closing the door behind her . She's sober now . She must have showered and changed before coming here . Her tone is soft and light , full of that tender innocence that awakened the recognition in my wolf all that time ago . The voice of my true mate ... But something feels different ... wrong . It's felt that way for the longest time already and I never dared admit it . Because the implication ... it's something I can't bear to face . 18:48 Mon , Oct 13 Chapter 37 " I couldn't sleep . " I reply curtly , still contemplating if or not to confront her . Ø ( 28 55 vouchers She closes the distance between us with slow , deliberate steps . Her barefoot making light footfalls over the rug . I still haven't looked up . I don't want to . " I thought you might want some company . " Her voice drops lower , huskier in a way she knows always gets to me . Her scent floods my senses the closer she gets . Vanilla and a trace of champagne ... intoxicating . From the rustle of her sheer silk nightie , I know she's undressed underneath . " Sarah ... " I say wearily . But she doesn't let me finish . Her hands come up to my shoulders from behind . Her touch is soft and light . She leans over my chair , her hair brushing against my cheek . I can feel the curves of her body pressing lightly into me as she whispers in my ear . " You're always busy now . Always away from me ." Her lips graze the side of my neck , for just long enough to make my breath catch and blood rush south . " I miss you , Cam . " She whines , I grip the edge of the desk . My wolf stirs at her touch . Of course ... despite my dissatisfaction with Sarah , the bond is as real as ever , and it tightens , demanding attention . The frustrations I've tried to ignore all night suddenly feel impossible to brush aside . Sarah moves around to face me , sitting on the desk , her silk gown lifts dangerously high on her thigh . The lighting casts a glow on her , the fabric of her nightie sheer enough to leave nothing to the imagination . I swallow ... hard . " Sarah ," I say again , this time with not nearly as much force as I had intended , She smiles softly . Leaning in closer , her hand rests lightly over mine , her fingers tracing patterns on my skin . " Don't push me away , " she whimpers needily . " Not tonight ." My gaze trails down the length of her . My wife ... My mate , the mother of my child . The one I should desire ... She looks at me like I'm still everything to her . And I wonder if I'm the only one that feels the cracks forming between us . I hate that the bond is this strong . It wrestles with my sense of reasoning . 18:48 Mon , Oct 13 Chapter 37 ... : 28 4 55 vouchers Seeing my struggle , she didn't hesitate anymore , slipping onto my lap to straddle me . The silk gown rides up , and I feel the warmth , as her wet sex dampens the fabric of my pants . I instinctively grab her hips , letting all other thoughts flit away . Her lips find mine , kissing me softly at first and then hungry . She tastes like champagne ... Her hips are moving steadily , grinding against my thigh . The kiss deepens , her fingers threading into my hair , pulling me even closer . My body betrays me , heat rising fast , and while a part of me considers pushing her away to get the conversation about Kelly done first , my grip tightens . I close my eyes , and that's when it changes . Because behind my closed lids . I don't see Sarah . I see Laila . The curve of her plump lips . The defiance in her eyes .... the fire in her voice . And before I can stop it , the name slips out . " Laila ... " Sarah freezes up . She recoils sharply , enough to look at me , with eyes wide with disbelief . She's not the only one in disbelief . I'm shocked too . I didn't even realise it when that name slipped out of my mouth . The silence that follows is heavy and suffocating . Sarah's lips part , trembling . Then she laughs softly , but it doesn't reach her eyes . " What did you just say ? " I don't answer . My throat dries up and my mind scrambles for an excuse , but nothing comes . The truth is clear and undeniable . I called Laila's name . Not Sarah . Her expression twists . The pain and rage flitting across her features is potent enough , it rips at my heart . She pushes herself off my lap , standing abruptly . I don't try to stop her . The damage is already done . The silk gown is bunched around her waist , but she doesn't bother fixing it . " You ... " she hisses , her voice now sharp . All the previous sweetness is gone . " You thought of her . While I was kissing you ! You called her name ! " 18:48 Mon , Oct 13 Chapter 37 The accusation is one I can't deny . I don't even try . " Sarah , listen ... " 65 vouchere " Don't . " She cuts me off harshly , tears shinning in her eyes , " So that's what this is about . Three years , and I still have to lose you to her . " I run a hand down my face , exhaling sharply . I can tell her it's nothing , that she's imagining things , that the bond we share is stronger than my past with Laila . And it is . I'd divorced Laila for it . But where's the strength of the bond when I need it ? I want to make an excuse , but the words don't come . Because I know the truth . I've known it since Laila first walked into that gala and stole my breath away , Even with Sarah in my arms , Laila still finds a way to consume my thoughts . Laila still haunts me, Laila who I never knew I wanted . Sarah stares at me , her breath trembling , her hands are clenched at her sides . " I gave up everything for you ," she whispers . " And you still want her . " She turns sharply and storms out , the door slamming behind her . I lean back into my chair , my mind reeling . Sarah's kiss still lingers on my lips , but all I can feel is Laila , Only Laila . AD Comment Send gift