Chapter 40 -Laila : . 284 65 vouchers Kael's words land heavily , like invisible shackles tightening around my neck . Like an executioner's noose that would leave me dangling from the tip of his finger , like the pawn he so badly wants to believe I am . His hand guides mine to unfasten the button of his pants , freeing his manhood . He's already fully aroused and still guiding my hand , he wraps it around his manhood , stroking a slow rhythm . Like we're not tearing into each other at the moment . His manhood is warm against my palm and it twitches . at my touch . His eyes trail down to watch our hands stroke him , and I can't help staring as well . The contrast between our skin tones , the size of our hands and the way our fingers are partly entwined , sends a strong jolt of desire right down to my sex . Instinctively , I tighten my grip around him . Kael gasps in quiet approval , his tongue darting out to wet his lips . His eyes return to holding mine captive as his lips part in a low moan . I should pull away ... I should , but I don't . What kind of man pleasures himself in the heat of an argument ? And makes me participate in it ? Only Kael . And yet , the heat pooling in my lower belly only grows stronger . Maybe I'm just that . Maybe I'm Kael's pawn . Between Cameron and Kael , I've let myself become someone I can't even recognize , while he ? He's still the same old Kael . The man who wants to control everything about me , but still can't make up his mind on what exactly he wants out of this . He acts like he'll give everything and anything to get Cameron to his knees . But when it comes down to it , he's been toying around since we returned . Applying just enough pressure to unsettle Cameron , but still holding back . Kael , he could have crushed Cameron already if he wanted to . He's built his strength for three years just for that . He'd gathered enough to pin Cameron without a way of escape , even excluding me . Yet he's been taunting his brother for weeks now , never taking a decisive action . Our contract will only end when Kael is Alpha Blackwood instead of Cameron . But at this rate , Kael will take a few more years and I'm losing patience with the Blackwoods . He just can't decide exactly what part he wants me to play in his revenge against Cameron . He just can't decide if he wants me panting and moaning beneath him or his brother . One moment , he sets me up with Cameron , all alone in a loft when I'm still reeling from old feelings resurfacing . Testing the limits of my self control and loyalty . And the next , he's spiraling about me meeting Cameron outside of his plans ... and mine . 18-48 Mon , Oct 13 Chapter 40 12 65 vauchers Like I couldn't have slipped out of his hands right then and there in Axis Loft if I was going to . I can't understand him . His motivations have always been unclear to me . He never lets me in on anything but just expects me to know how not to get in the way of his plans . But how am I supposed to know I'm getting in the way if he won't tell me anything ? All along , I thought he brought me back here to push Cameron off the edge . And I'm doing that . at least 1 think I am . So what more does he want ? Why does he get restless whenever he sees me together with Cameron ? What rights does he even have to expect loyalty from me when he's not capable of giving it himself ? He doesn't even have the decency to be remorseful about fucking Julie a few minutes after his dick was down my throat . Unapologetic , self absorbed ... he pushes my every limit . That's just what Kael does . And he does it all while stirring an unquenchable heat in my lower belly . His hands trail the side of my neck , as if checking how easy it would be to snap . He's still stroking himself steadily , not enough to drive him over the edge , just enough to keep him circling around his needs , While my other is placed flat against his chest . Like I want to push him away , and a few times , I think I'm going to . But I don't . He's grinds into my hand , and he grunts quietly , his head dropping to my shoulders . My panties dampen and I grit my teeth , fighting the urge to clamp my legs together . Kael's quiet moans are doing things to me that I can't put into words . And he knows it ... He shouldn't affect me like this . I don't have any special feelings towards Kael save for this damning lust that's clouding my better judgement . Since the gala , the tension between us that has simmered beneath the surface for three years has broken free . And the longer we stay together , the closer it gets to the breaking point . He's standing so close that the warmth of his breath fans over my face , I can feel his body heat radiating off of him , I can smell his arousal , can hear his pants as he teases himself with my hand and he doesn't even care to hide it . Rather , he flaunts his desire for me right in my face like a weapon . He wants me to know ... wants me to see and feel him ... his need . For what ? I just can't wrap my head around it . " What ? Cat got your tongue ? " He hisses lowly . His accusations are sharp and biting . But I don't flinch away from it . I won't give him the satisfaction . " Everything is a competition to you Kael . " I murmur finally , exhaling a breath to calm my heated skin . 18:48 Mon , Oct 13 Chapter 40 It doesn't help . ៩៩ ៤១ 55 vouchers " Everything is a scheme , and everyone has ulterior motives . You're a man who only sees the darker sides to people ... " " But have you considered the fact that perhaps , what you see is just a reflection of your own darkness ? " Kael's eyes narrow slightly . My grip around his manhood tightens further and I increase the pace of our joint strokes His breaths are faster , his lips fall open in a soundless moan and he doesn't try to stop me from driving him over the edge . He holds my gaze the entire time , and a smirk stretches his lips as his hand falls away , letting me retrieve mine . His cum stains both our hands , and all over our floor adding to the mess . But that's the last thing on either of our minds , " You never answered my question . " He points out . His hand trails my inner thighs and my breath catches . " Wh ... what question ? " I ask uncertainly , " Do you want it ? " He asks , his gaze darting down to his manhood . " It's yours if you do . " I exhale a low , trembling breath . He says it like whatever I say now will determine the course of our marriage going forward . Nights alone , with a wall separating us , would become nights trembling beneath the heat of Kael's body , and his relentless desires . Most women would jump at the opportunity . " I don't make love with rebels . " I say , my hand moving to his wrist to prevent him from inching closer to my sex . " Who said anything about making love , Laila ? " Kael asks , his breath hot against my skin . " Right . " I agree , " A good fuck is all you have to offer . But I can get that anywhere Kael , you're not the only thing with a dick in Thorneville ." Kael's brows quirk and his lips twitch slightly , amusement shining in his eyes . " Are you rejecting me right now , Laila ? " " Rejecting you ? " I scoff . " That's only possible if I ever chose you in the first place , isn't it ? " Kael stiffens . I don't wait to see his expression , getting off the counter , I brush past him and head up to my room . 18:48 Mon , Oct 13 Chapter 41 Chapter 41