Chapter 33 Goof 0 0:9 O Leaving Silvy after our date was one of the hardest things I have had to do. So far. I wanted to go inside with her and take her to bed. Or fuck her against the wall. Or any other surface we could get to but that wasn't what this date was about. It was about showing Silvy that we could be more than co-parents or friends with benefits. That we can be together. As a family. I wanted to show Silvy what our future date nights would look like. What being with me other than friends or sex would be like? And I could tell she had a good time. I know my girl. She loved every second of it. And so did 1. It has been a long time since I went on a date. I don't remember having so much fun and not expecting sex from it. Or having that be my end goal. That was always my end goal. That was all I wanted. But that was before I met the woman I would spend the rest of my life with. My Silvy. As much as I wanted an answer to my proposal I didn't bring it up. It is too soon. Even though I have made up my mind doesn't mean she has had time to make up hers. Every call, text or time we spend together I want to beg Silvy to choose me. Choose us. But I don't. I just keep showing up and proving to her that I'm the man she needs. You may be wondering why I keep going. Three reasons. My little bit is the first one. The second is I can't imagine my life without Silvy. I just wished I had woken up sooner to do something about it. And the final reason is I can see I'm getting to Silvy. It is little things like the way she lets me hold her longer. Or the way she has started giving me kisses on the cheek when I drop dinner off. That is a new thing. Or like when we went for her check-up yesterday she held my hand during the ultrasound. Or when she pointed to the screen at the arms and legs of our baby and said "Look what we did." We. We still don't know what we are having yet. I don't know if we will. We talk back and forth about it. Both of us kind of want to know but we want to be surprised as well. We talked about it and we agreed that if we didn't figure it out by the time Silvy was six months along we were going to keep it a surprise. Just one short month away. I can't wait. Our baby is getting bigger every day. Just a few days ago I was having lunch with Silvy at work when the baby kicked. Silvy just grabbed my hand and placed it on her stomach. At first I didn't feel anything and was going to move my hand. Silvy stopped me and told me to wait. I'm glad she did because the next second I felt movement. Silvy laughed at the look on my face. I know I was in awe. Silvy placed her hand on mine and said "She is saying hi to you." Silvy is still sure we are having a girl. I got down on my knees in front of Silvy and pressed my ear to her stomach. I got a foot to my head. I don't know how long I sat there talking to Silvy's stomach. To our daughter. I'm starting to think the way Silvy does. Silvy seemed in no hurry to push me away. She even ran her fingers through my hair, smiling at me as I talked. "Daddy can't wait to meet you. And to holdu. But no rush. Be easy on your mom. She is working hard on growing you." I told Silvy's stomach. Silvy didn't correct me when I called myself daddy. Since that day I make sure to touch Silvy's stomach every time she is near. I don't care who is watching. I hope I get to feel a kick again. Or see some movement. I feel like the baby knows I'm there because I get movement every time. Silvy says the baby is more active when it hears my voice. That it knows me. Chapter Comments 6 5 Write Comments 1