Chapter 10 44% ' Bast ! Are you still there ? I know you don't have the balls to actually do it . ' Val's message pulled me out of my thoughts . ' No , I was thinking . ' I typed back to her , then sent another message : ' Val , seriously what should I do ? I feel so bad ! ' ' Bast , why do you refuse to be with him ? He's sexy as fuck , rich as fuck , and for some reason he is heads over heels for you ! ' I started to respond , but her next reply stopped me in my tracks . ' Climb that tree of a man , Bast . Fuck him until you can't think straight . Lord knows you need to stop thinking already . Then fuck him again until all 20 of those years of pent - up energy are gone , and if he can go again , which I'm betting he can , keep fucking him . Then after , when y'all are done being all cute and shit , DETAILS BITCH ! ( 3 I gaped at the screen for a moment , my eyes open wide as I read what she said , over and over again . I couldn't believe Val said that . Well I could believe it , but I didn't want to . traction will only go so far ' I don't refuse to be with him Val . It's just , whats left after sex ? I don't know anything about him ! I know I'm attracted to him , yes , obviously . But when I have to spend the rest of my life with him . I want to feel something for him other than sexual . What if after sex , he decides that he wasted nearly 20 years on something that wasn't worth it? You have no idea how much that would destroy me . ' " That won't happen , kitten . Is that what you've been afraid of this whole time ? " Damien's suddenly said in my ear . I hadn't noticed him walk over to me , and I definitely didn't notice when he bent down to read what Val and I were talking about , despite the fact that his face was right next to mine . I couldn't help the small squeak that escaped when I heard his deep voice , right in my ear . " How long have you been there ? " I whispered , breathing heavily . " Not long , but I'm a quick reader . " He said as he spun my chair around , so we were face to face Is that true ? What you told Valerie ? " He asked me , kneeling in front of me , so I didn't have to crane my neck to look up at him . I nodded softly , unable to find the words to speak . 20:05 Fri , Aug 22 GG Chapter 10 44 % " You think I would wait this long for you , do everything I have done for you , just to decide I don't want you anymore ? " He asked me softly , the hurt in his voice apparent . " I wasn't trying to hurt you again , I was just being honest . " I whispered , looking down at my legs . " I understand , kitten . I get why you've been acting this way around me now . " He said with a slight smile in his eyes , like he was happy about it . " Why do you seem happy to know this ? Aren't you still upset with me ? " I asked him , daring to glance into his eyes . His usually terrifying eyes were now soft as he allowed himself to smile , showing his perfect white teeth . " I'm happy to know that you care enough to try to make this work . That means something to me , and you should know that I want to do the same . Granted , I know that I want you by my side , but I'm willing to do what it takes for you to come to the same conclusion . " He said as he leaned forward , and kissed me softly on the lips . I sighed in relief as I put my arms around his shoulders and kissed him back , letting myself rest against him . He groaned as he put his arms around me , pulling me to the edge of my chair as he explored my mouth with his tongue . I felt my heart rate increase as we began kissing harder , with more passion than ever before . He put one hand on the back of my head as he leaned into me , forcing my chair to lean back against the desk , his other hand making its way down my back until it reached just under my thigh . He broke away from our kiss long enough to let me catch my breath .