I have no problems with spending our last week in Paris together all day long . When we get home , I clean up Aizen's scratches and put some bandaids on them . It doesn't take much to get them in a better mood . All Thad to say was that they weren't ever going back there again . As I box everything up to send to our new home , I have to admit that I am going to miss this place . This is where they were born . Where I struggled for the first few months as a first - time mom until I met Kendra . Their nanny has been a dream since hiring her . She agreed to move here with me and is more than thrilled to be on the same continent as her family again . Both Aizen and Ayrie took their first steps here . They both called me Mama for the first time here and I am getting very sentimental now . I go to the bathroom so the kids don ' t see me cry . Kendra sees me though . This will be good for you and them ," she reminds me . " Us too , " " I know . It's just , this was our home for so long , " " I am very excited for California , " she laughs . " I am very excited for the kids to see it too , " I feel much better . 1 take the kids to a couple of museums and the Eiffel Tower one last time so we can say goodbye and have lots of pictures . During our flight , I can't help but feel nervous . for some reason . Aizen sleeps through most of it but like me , Ayrie doesn't shut her eves once " Mommy , are we going to see Grandpa again this time ? " " Uh , I clear my throat remembering how telling my dad I was a mother of two without telling him the name of their father went . ' Not this time . We're moving there . It's going to be our new home , " " Is it going to be a regular house this time ?" she asks excitedly . " It'll be an apartment first . I want to find the perfect house . Would you like to help with that ? " " Will it be by the beach ? " she asks excitedly . I may have mentioned we'd be by the beach . " Would you like it to be ? " " Yes , " she nods eagerly . " We never been to the beach , " " We can go this weekend while we settle in . It's not too far from our apartment , " " Oui , s'il vous plaît , " she giggles and crawls onto my lap . " Do we still have to talk French ? " " Not if you don't want to . In California mostly everyone speaks English ," " What do the others speaks ? " " It depends , but where we're going I'd have to say Spanish , " " We don't know Spanish , " she curls into me " No , well . You don't , I laugh . " You do ? " she gasps . " I do ," I nod . " And so does Kenny , " " Awesome sauce . I want Kenny to teach me Spanish , " " You don't want me to teach you ? " " I want you to find the perfect beach house , Mommy . Better than Barbie's , " she laughs . " Better than Barbie's , huh ? " I tickle her . She giggles and then wraps her arms around me . " Are you sad , Mommy ? " she asks . " Why would you ask that ? " " Because Mrs. Reedly said you must be a sad fuck with two kids and no husband , " Kendra was in the midst of drinking water . She almost spits it out and starts coughing . I have to fight laughing harder than I ever have in my entire life . I hear a couple of Haughs from the other private areas in the first - class lounge . Her little French accent only serves in her favor . Mrs. Reedly is probably explaining to her husband that they're being sued by some crazy American woman at the moment along with the school who transferred their son to a different private academy . " No , Ayrie . I am not sad . You are not allowed to repeat that ever again in your life , " I finally laugh . " I promise ," she giggles . " Can I go lay down with Bubbie ? " " Yeah , I'll take you , " I sigh and stand . I take her over to him and tuck her in next to him . It's crazy how alike they look like this . I cover them and signal Kendra to watch them . She's still bright red . She gives me a thumbs up . It was never a secret . I never told anyone I was married and with how public my profile is , the moms all had their laugh at my expense . So did some of my co -workers . My boss has been trying to set me up left and right , but I honestly didn't have the time between runways and the kids . Sure , Kendra took a lot of the weight off , but there was no way I was going to end up with a French man . My father would hunt both of us down I wash my hands and open the door to get back to my seat . The door across from me opens at the same time and a man steps out before I can . " Excuse me , " he says politely . My heart stops and my ears immediately start to ring . I close my eyes and shake my head . No. There is no fucking way that's him. I step out just enough to watch him go over to the back area furthest away from the twins and then he turns around . It is him . I all but run to my sent " You okay ? " Kendra asks when I fall into my seat and grab one of the blankets to cover myself with it as if it would make me disappear . " This is not happening . I whisper to myself . " Oh , do you need a tampon ? " she whispers . " What ? " I ask her caught off guard . " What ? " she asks defensively . " Why are you all squirrelly , Phoebs ? " No reason , " I clear my throat . I reach for a water bottle . " Phoebe , you're shaking , " she places her hand over mine . " Did something happen ?" " No , " I shake my head . I take a couple of deep breaths . " I just feel a little light - headed , " Here , lie back . You're pale , " There is no way he'll recognize me . He's on the other side of the plane . It was a long time ago . I don't even have long hair anymore and I'm dressed differently . Right ? Right . Oh , my god . What are the odds of this happening ? Then again , what are the odds of what happened before happening ? The fucking odds are always aligned . Shit . " I got you some sparkling water , " Kendra returns with a little green bottle . " Thank you , " I take it . " New home jitters ? " she asks playfully " No , just the ghosts of the past , " I mumble . " I hear that ," she sits across from me . I forget she has crazy good hearing . The twins are up and ready to get off the plane when we land . There's no way we're going to see him again . At least , that is what I'm telling myself as we get off the plane and head down to get our luggage . As luck has it , I don't see him again . I get my things and set them down as Kendra tells the kids that California is the coolest place in the world and that it's also her first time here . " Mommy , Chocolate Sprinkles ! " Ayrie calls out and runs off . I look up to see her bear stuck on the belt . " Watch this ," I call out Kendra " Got it ," she laughs . The bear's overalls are stuck on the edge of the belt and I can't get it out . " Excuse me ," I call out as I struggle . I'm almost to the end of the belt when a hand reaches out and unhooks it . I stumble back making sure nothing happened to my baby ' s favorite bear . " Thank you , so much . This my baby's I stop when I see him standing there . " Favorite bear ," " You're welcome , " he smiles . I press my lips together and nod stupidly . " Do I know you ? " he asks stopping me " You seem familiar ' Shit . I clear my throat . " It's you , he adds quietly . " My good girl ," " Fuck I laugh and spin around to face him . " I was hoping you didn't recognize me , " " I take offense to that , Angel , he smirks " Mommy You found him , " Ayrie points up at me . " Huh ? " my mind glitches for a second and then I realize what she's talking about when she snatches the bear out of my hands . " I'm sorry , Chocolate Sprinkles , she says dusting his overalls and then hugs him tightly " Momma , my strap came apart , " Aizen comes over to me holding out his carry - on . " I told you to stop tugging on it , " I remind him . He laughs and holds it up so I can fix it . " You have two , " Knighty looks between them . He looks stunned . " Yeah , these are my kids . Aizen and Ayrie , " I say mindlessly . Why did I say that to him ? " You're the guy from the TV, " Ayrie shouts excitedly . I cover her mouth and pull her to me " Oh , my god ! It's Knightly Blake , " someone screams . Just like her Mom , huh ? " he steps back and pulls his hoodie over his head . " I'll see you around , Phoebe , " " Kenny ," I call out picking up Ayrie She lifts up Aizen and we grab our things trying to dodge the people running past us . God , that was a good save , baby girl . People swarm past us as we try to get the hell out of there . We make it to the exit to find our driver holding up a sign with my last name on it . We hurry over to him . He leads us out to his van . Two car seats are waiting inside for us . I don't hesitate to hide the twins . " You know Knightly Blake ? Kendra asks when we're finally moving . " How ? " " I don't want to talk about it , " I shake my head and try to catch my breath . " That's nuts , " she laughs . " I fucking hate that guy ," " You're not supposed to say that word , " Aizen scolds her . " Right , " she nods . " I hate him , "