Chapter 28 2 % " He is . The best , " Knight pulls his legs up to rest his forearms on them . The tattoos take me back to the night we met . I touched them all . I feel a little awkward about dreaming about doing that again . " I was twelve when he came into our life . My wolf was- " he rests his head back looking up at the moon behind me . " Arnold is a cruel man . It comes with what we are . " Alphas are power , but that man is sick . Feral wolves are like that . The human side of them dies and they become all instinct . Eventually , they turn never to be human again . Losing a mate is a lot like snuffing out all the good in us . Everything that makes us a person and he started conditioning me for it from the moment I shifted when I turned six . " For three years , my wolf followed every command his father and alpha gave him . I did some fucked shit , " he sighs . " I did it because he told me that if I refused , he would hurt my mother . When my mom caught on , she tried to get between us and I had to push her away . When he saw that I was no longer resisting his orders , he tried to make me kill her , " " Knight , " I kneel in front of him wondering if it would be okay to touch him . He didn't react too kindly to it when I did the last time . " I told her we had to run and she didn't hesitate . One of the kitchen ladies got us out and we were on the run until Mom bought the beach house . That's how we met Freddy . She had to ask permission from the alpha of the city to purchase the unclaimed land . At the time , it was his dad . My grandfather . You're going to love him and my grandma , " he smiles . " If they're anything like Freddy , I believe you , " I smile and he grins . " I didn't take too kindly to another alpha at first . I was messed up . It's called B.F.D. Borderline Feral Disorder . My grandma is a psychiatrist for juveniles like me who come from Feral families and rogues . " Freddie was so patient with me , but I couldn't control my wolf , " his lower lip trembles and tears slide down his cheeks . " My first sibling was a sister . She was three when Ruin started coming around . He shoved her and I lost control , " he presses the back of his hands to his eyes . " When I came too , she was gone and I was covered in her blood , " " Knight , " I don't hesitate to reach for him . He fights me at first but when I wrap my arms around him and hold his head to my chest he relaxes a little and lets me hold him . " Knight , that wasn't your fault , " " I know that , but it doesn't change what I did , " he cries . " I was supposed to protect her , " " I'm so sorry , " I hold onto him tightly . Relief floods through me when he wraps his arms around me. I can feel his tears soaking through my T - shirt . " The best thing you could have done was keep them from me . I don't know how to tell you how thankful I am that you did , " he admits . He straightens up to look at me . His pretty green eyes are rimmed red . " Phoebe , I don't know if I can do this , " " I fucked up by telling Kendra you were their father . I'm so sorry , " " That's not on you , " he shakes his head . " Things are going to get worse before they get better , Angel . When Argold finds out about you and that I have an heir . He will stop at nothing to turn me into what he's always intended , " " I can't exactly hide ," " I know , " he caresses my cheeks . " You're so beautiful , " he smiles . " The first time I saw you was from behind the curtain that night . I didn't know who were or that you were my mate yet . You had this huge grin on your face . You were talking to your friends and taking pictures . I panicked when I almost stepped on your hand . Ayrie is right , you did kind of look like Pochantas , " " Oh , my god ," I laugh . Stupid dog boy . " I knew the moment your eyes met mine , " his thumbs stroke my face . " I used to think I hated Arnold for what he did , but I never hated him more than I did in that moment . When you fell asleep , I wished things were different . I never wished that I had been born Freddy's son more . " I left because I knew that if you woke in my arms I wouldn't have been able to walk away . I was still a juvenile and I wouldn't have been able to protect you . I still remember all of your designs , " he lifts his hips to pull out his wallet . He takes a folded napkin out and hands it to me . I open it to find it's one of my doodles , it has the date we met on it . All of my drawings have them . " I stole this , " 1/2 16:44 Chapter 28 May " Knight , " I look up at him not knowing what to say , " I didn't even notice " " I was hoping that would be the case , " he smiles . " I'm scared too , " he admits , " I don't know what comes next , baby , I just know that I have to be prepared . We both have to be , " " What do I have to do ? " I nod . He smiles , his hand slips down to the curve of my neck . " I need time , " he says . " To get my wolf back in shape . To wrap my mind around you being here . You'll need to learn how to adapt to this life and when we're ready , I have to mark you , " " You mean turn me ? " " Yes , " he nods . " But I'm going to be there through all of it . Whatever you need I will provide . It's not going to be easy , Phoebe . And it won't just be the werewolf shit . A big part of why I chose the music was because it meant I'd be in the limelight . Hiding in plain sight . Arnold won't be stupid enough to attack me in public . " But he will come after us in other ways . Xochtl has an alliance with us and with him because she has wolf housing on his territory for her company . Jus like my father . He can't touch us but he can still make our lives a living hell , " " Fuck , " I sit back . " He sounds like a real fucking piece of shit , " " He is , " he nods . " I need you to tell me everything , Angel . You can't hide your feelings from me . We can't lie to each other . Even if it hurts me , I need you to be honest with me for this to work and I will do the same , " " You promise ? " " Phoebe , " the way he says my name breaks my heart . It sounds like it hurts him to say it . " You're the only reason I would do this at all , " " What does that mean ? " " I- " he takes a deep breath and exhales heavily . " I walked away from you knowing you were human . The damage it caused me was substantial . Those first six months , physically made me ill . I had to cancel a few shows after how bad it got . The press thought I was on drugs ," " I remember , " I nod . " You went to rehab , " " Right , " he smiles . " No , it was just my wolf becoming dormant ," " Like he was dying ? " " Much worse . Dying means that it's over for us in the end . He was still there , but it was just a whisper of the alpha he had been . I was becoming mortal . Weakening . The parts in my body that were him , were decaying . We're not really sure how long it takes for the wolf's spirit to die or what happens when it does . No one has been stupid enough to try before ," " Why would you put yourself through that ? " " Angel , there is nothing I wouldn't do to make sure this world went on with you in it , " he smiles but his expression is sad . Lonely . " I would rather die than let that man hurt you in any way just to get to me . The more I learn about you , the more I stand by my decision to walk away . I just wanted one night with you . You were such a good girl , " he caresses my cheek again . " You still are . Always giving me what I know I'll never deserve , " 2/2 AD Comment Send gift