Empty I woke up feeling deliciously sore . Everything that happened last night flooded my brain and I grinned up at my ceiling . I bit my lip and felt excited to start the day off . I didn't know how it would turn out between the both of us , but I was sure more of this would happen , so it excited me . I jumped into the shower and then got dressed . I noticed a couple of new hickeys on my neck and decided I needed to probably tell him to hold off on those . Not that I was embarrassed about them , but I knew if Dexter saw them , even though he was back with Alicia , he would flip his lid . I went down the stairs and felt ravenous . I dug through the freezer for my usual frozen waffles and frowned at the empty box that had been left behind . I looked around the freezer and then in the fridge and continued to pull out empty containers and plastic bags . Seeing everything piled up made my amazing mood fade instantly . We were out of food . This has never happened before . I swallowed hard and realized that my dad was the sole shopper . Mom was never sober enough to go and I never even realized that Dad had done so much to keep us going . I bit my lip and sat down at the kitchen island . I stared at all of the empty containers and felt myself take another deep breath . I got up and went upstairs and grabbed a pen and a notebook . Dad wasn't here anymore to do this , so someone had to do it , right ? I wrote down all of the empties on my list then threw them all in the trash can that was nearly overflowing now . I took the bag out , ashamed to know that there was yet another thing I never noticed . I went around the house and grabbed every trash , including my mom's which was the heaviest with bottles of beer and liquor . I took the trash out to the trash bins and saw that there were two . What the f * ck ? I groaned and looked down at all of the trash I had . I stuffed it all in the green can and shrugged . I would need to learn how in the hell to sort my trash . I resumed my list of things I saw missing in the fridge . All we had left in there and the freezer were meats. I didn't know how to cook , so what could I do with it ? I decided not to worry about that right now . Instead , I checked my pantry and resumed taking empty boxes and packages out of there and writing down everything that was missing . I noticed a pack of my dad's favorite cereal and felt it . It was half empty . I pushed it back on the shelf , even though I knew I would never touch it . I couldn't bear the thought of throwing it away . I finished up my list and then wondered where all of the credit cards were . I walked into my mom's room and she was awake , sitting in pajamas and smoking a cigarette . Dad hated it when she smoked and never allowed her to do it in the house . I fanned the smoke away from me as much as I could and sighed . " Mom I need to go grocery shopping . Where are the credit cards ? " " Check my purse. " She pointed towards the dresser and sat back , her eyes glued to the TV . I opened her purse and found her wallet , along with my dad's . I opened his and took a couple of his cards then looked in Mom's and found some cash . It was a good three hundred and I waved it at her . 1/2 Empty +25 BONUS " I'm taking this just in case the cards don't go through . " " Fine . Grab me another pack of cigarettes while you're out . And I need more beer . " " I'm not old enough to get either of those Mom . " " Figure it out . " She waved me away and turned the volume on her TV to a deafening roar . I growled and left . I grabbed the keys to my dad's Porsche and then decided against but because there wasn't much space in the trunk . So I took my mom's keys to her Range Rover . Which store had everything I needed ? I felt inept at wondering that , but I had never in my entire life gone grocery shopping before . My dad had asked me to go with him a few times , but I always refused . Now I didn't know where in the hell to go . Me : Name some grocery stores in our area . James : Trader Joe's , Vons , Smith's Me : Which one is the best ? James : I don't know . They all carry groceries if that's what you're after . Me : Okay . Thank you ! I didn't want to embarrass myself any further and ask him any stupid questions , so I looked up grocery stores near me and found that I had seen the logo for Trader Joe's before . So I decided to go there . I pulled into the parking lot and felt nervous all of a sudden . It was just like shopping for clothes right ? Not a big deal . I walked in and grabbed a grocery cart . I wondered how many times Dad had come here for groceries to get away from Mom .