Chapter 30 - I'll love you forever Wrong Number Lost . That was what Ryan looked to me as he paced around the room , he was gripping his hair and muttering to myself . His eyes were full of anguish and he looked like a tiny puppy who had strayed off his path . It was painful to watch . He gripped the wall and hit his head there lightly continuously murmuring something to himself , frantically . It was breaking my heart to see him like this . This was not the Ryan I knew . The Ryan I knew was cheery , he laughed , he smiled , he was arrogant at times and he was quiet and liked to think about life . He had substance . All I saw now in front of me now was just a hollow vessel filled to the brim with conflicting madness . He was fighting an internal battle and losing badly . Each day he woke up , more dead . Turning into a person , god knew , he wasn't . He was losing the last traces of his normal self . He was dying . I felt my throat close up with pity . I was supposed to hate him but I couldn't . Trish was right , I was incapable of hate . All I felt for him was pity . After I called Austin he had been fine then just as night set in , he lost it . I could've helped him get better , if he had not dragged me into this mess . If only he could see a little bit of clarity maybe then he could know he could be helped . I got up from my seat on the couch , wincing as the place where he had stabbed me stretched , reminding me of his sins and shortcomings . But I knew one thing , the person who had hurt me was not Ryan . He was sick to the core and it was his sickness that was making him do what he was doing . I walked to him and gingerly gripped his on the shoulder . " Ryan..stop banging your head..sit down . " I told him sternly . And tried to turn him . " NO ! Don't touch me you w *** e ! Don't tell me what to do ! " He screamed at me as he turned , his eyes blazing . I flinched back but kept a straight face . " I said sit down Ryan . Sit . " I demanded with a firm voice , showing him that his screaming and abuses didn't scare me anymore . He turned to look at me his grey eyes as lost as they could be with so much pain in them it made my heart wrench . To my utter surprise , Ryan crumpled down to the floor , sitting down , grabbing his hair and crying softly . My mouth dropped open in shock . This was the first time I was seeing him so vulnerable , like he was made of glass and would break into pieces if I touched him . 14 OOONN IL 1/6 MOM D T < Chapter 30- I'll love you forever Wrong Number +8 Points > My heart broke for the man in front of me . To what he had become . For what he could have been . For the innocent boy who lost his own innocence . For the grown man struggling to fight his demons . I crouched down slowly to his height feeling sorry for him . " Hey , Ryan..sshh .. it's okay , you're going to be alright . Stop crying . " He looked at me with frustration . " No , it's not alright . Don't say that ! I hate lies ! " A tear slipped out of my eye at his face . He looked exactly like the torn little boy he once had been . " I'm not lying , I promise you , there is help for you out there . They will help you . " He shook his head furiously . " No , not those f ***** g white coats . They think I'm a nut case . I'm not a nut case ! " He wrapped his arms around his knees and rocked himself muttering " I'm not " again and again . I felt another tear slip out of my eye looking at him . He was completely and utterly broken . " I know . You're not . But everybody gets sick , it's okay to get help sometimes to be okay . " He lifted his head from his knees looking at me like I just told him the biggest revelation of all . " Really ? " I nodded . " Yeah . " He features lifted with a genuine smile and I saw a flicker of the old Ryan crack out in them . He bored his eyes into mine and my heart chilled with the emotion in them . He couldn't . He couldn't possibly really love me . No. I averted my eyes and scrambled to my feet , feeling stupid for giving him hope . Why did I have to be such a bloody empath ? " Sugar ? " He called out . I sucked in a breath and turned around . " Yeah ? " " Please don't leave me like the others . " I woke up the next day feeling guilt ride on my shoulders . Don't be stupid Sophia , feeling guilty for that monster after everything he did is just plain stupid . I looked at the clock feeling anxiety ride in , why was Austin not here yet ? I walked into the washroom and showered and brushed my teeth and walked out to the smell of scrambled eggs . 14 OOON ZAK BOM 15 12/6 O < < Chapter 30 - I'll love you forever Wrong Number +8 Points Ryan was plating up the eggs and the toast for me , he handed me the plates with a smile . His face held no trace of emotion of last night . " Thank you . " I mumbled . I took the plate and forked some eggs into my mouth , chewing slowly . Ryan might be sick and all and I did feel sorry for him but he could never par up to Austin . He could never become the love of my life , even if he we went back in time and redid everything . We were interrupted with rapid knocking on the door and my eyes widened in registration . Austin ! Ryan's eyes flitted to mine and they narrowed with accusation registering my expression . " What the f** k did you do ? " I remained tight lipped and slowly got up from my seat , my heart hammering hard . I needed my weapons for defense . The knife and the pan in the sink were perfect . Ryan stalked towards me , his eyes morphing into scary , soulless pits of fury . I backed myself up to the sink and gripped its edge as Ryan stood in front of me . " How dare you ? After everything I did for you , after everything you do this ? You f ***** g cold hearted bitch ." He spat at me . My heart jumped into my throat registering his cold eyes . " R..Ryan , calm down . You're sick , alright ? You need help . I am not the answer to- " " SHUT UP ! " He screamed at me and grabbed my throat squeezing it hard . " I'll kill you , you're mine , you b *** h , mine ! " I gasped fighting hard to breathe . At that very moment the door broke open and Austin ran towards me and without a thought lunged at Ryan , prying his hands off my neck . I stepped back with a gasp , tears prickling my eyes . Austin pushed Ryan down to the floor , throwing continuous punches at his face . WIST " You f **** d up bastard , How dare you ? How dare you touch her ! " Austin hissed at him pressing his hands around Ryan's neck . I couldn't even recognize Austin , he was mad with fury . I saw two police men running up the porch steps . " Austin ! Stop ! " I screamed as I saw blood spurt out of Ryan's mouth and his eyes lolloing to the back of his head . My god , he was going to kill him . At once , he stopped , turning to look at me , his knuckles were bloody . I helped Austin up . 376 0 14 DONN 11 DO M ||| O < Chapter 30- I'll love you forever Wrong Number +6 Points " Don't . Don't do it . He's sick . You're not . Okay ? I'm just happy you're here ." I whispered to him . Austin wrapped his arms around me and hugged me , squeezing me close to him , breathing him . I could hear his heartbeat race against mine . We were together , it was going to be okay . I wrapped my arms around him . I closed my eyes and sighed , it was over . I opened my eyes and my eyes widened . I thought too soon . It wasn't over . I saw Ryan slip his hand under the sink counter and come up with a gun . Within a second he was up and was aiming at Austin's back . No , not him . The police men surrounded him with their guns pointing at him . " Put that gun down , Ryan . Now . " Austin turned in my arms and looked at Ryan and his eyes widened . Ryan snickered . " Looks like you're not all that untouchable hot shot . " He spat the blood in his mouth to the floor . " You f ***** g ruined me . You stole her from me , you piece of s ** t . You should rot in hell . Yet there she goes running back to you . " He snickered . My stomach lurched , seeing the hate swirling venomously in his eyes directed towards Austin . His eyes turned to me . " You sugar , are a mindless b *** h . I love you , yet you keep running to him . You are the one who's f **** d up , " He let out a breath as his eyes softened a little as he looked at me . His stance faltered as he gazed at me , traces of his lost soul surfacing . " I love you so , so much . I did everything to get you back to me . Everything . I could sell my soul for you Sophia . You saved my life … yet you're leaving me … just like the others . " His voice cracked at the end . I let out a shaky breath . " Ryan .. " And within a split second his vulnerable eyes solidified to pure coldness swirling with revenge . His eyes trained on Austin , pouring with hate . " You're leaving me for him , I'm sorry sugar but that can't happen . " What happened next , happened so fast that my brain couldn't even register it properly , it was pure reflex . I saw Ryan's finger pull the trigger and I pushed Austin to the ground and stepped in between . Half a second later , I felt my entire world spin out of axis as I crumpled to the floor . " No ! " Austin screamed as he crawled to me . Pain . Blinding Pain . I couldn't breathe , the pain exploded inside my body , enveloping every single nerve ending in my body as I 14 วัด เด็ ง ZAN COM T O 4/6 < Chapter 30- I'll love you forever Wrong Number screamed . + Points I couldn't focus on anything , there was just too much happening at once . Ryan screaming , the police tackling him down , Austin wrapping his arms around me . And then the pain . It came like a hit and moved to my entire body . White hot . Searing . I choked as a trail of blood slipped out of my mouth as tears clouded my vision . My body was starting to register the bullet inside me and my legs had started losing their sense . Austin's face appeared above me , he had tears streaming down his face . " No , no , no . " He sobbed . " Hey … don't .. " I rasped out , stretching my hand to cradle his face , my fingers weakly wiping his tears . I felt the numbness spread to the upper part of my legs . Looking at his face , I felt a strange sense of peace invade me . And everything came back to me rushing like a movie , every single moment , every kiss , every word . It flashed in front of me as my vision blurred . He literally was my everything . Austin cradled my face in his hands as I felt spots dance above my eyes . " Cupcake..please .. stay with me … Don't you dare leave … Please … remember this ? " He pulled up the ring around my neck to show me . I smiled as tears escaped my eyes , I was feeling dizzier now as the pain throbbed in my chest . " This is not the end … this can't be..please..I love you..i love you so , so much … please stay with me . I can't … I can't lose you " He cried as he kissed my lips , his tears falling on my cheeks . I wanted to tell him how much I loved him too , how much he meant to me but the words failed to come to lips as I felt my consciousness slip . I felt several pair of hands lift me to a stretcher . Where did that come from ? My eyes fluttered as I felt everything move away from me . I could see Austin's face , his lips were moving , he was saying something but the sudden rushing in my ears didn't allow me to hear his words . My eyes slipped to his beautiful face as I gave him a weak smile , mentally telling him my last words before the darkness surrounded me , I'll love you forever Wrong Number .