Chapter 4 - Life , I am not your personal comedian , stop messing with me ! ou gotta do it . You can do it . Come on . " Alex coaxed me , like father who was urging his constipated kid to take a s ** 1 . " Soph , you I gulped . Winner's never quit , and quitter's never win . Yes , I could do it . 1 puffed out my cheeks and walked out of the car with my chin held high . I am the boss . I could do this . One step . Who's the boss ? Two step . I'm the boss . Three step Splat Ouch . Lhuffed , feeling the dirt stick to my face as I very ceremoniously announced myself as a klutz by face planting myself on Ryan's driveway . Sometimes I wonder why God forgot to smack me silly with the lucky stick , what had I done to have bad luck stuck to me like it was a lamb and I was effin Mary . Why couldn't i be like those super amazing women in movies who could face their cheating boyfriend like fireballs ? But no , In Sophia - land you get to face plant your body and your last traces of self respect onto your boyfriends very rocky driveway . Just dandy " Jesus , Sophia , are you okay ? " Alex hurried behind me , picking me up . " I'm fine ." I grumbled , rubbing the gravelly dirt off my face and clothes . Alex shook his head, and helped my get to my feet . " How are you even alive ? With y your motor skills , I am surprised you haven't thrown yourself under a monster truck . " "I'm clumsy , Alex , not mental . Now , go ." Alex raised his hands in defense and retreated to his car . He mouthed ' All the best dork to me and drove away but knowing him , I knew he would be waiting for my call at the café . downtown , knowing me being me , he might have to come and step in soon , to be Mr. Superhéro I rubbed my sweaty palms against my jeans and pulled the sleeves of my sweater lower so that they could engulf my entire hand in them as I walked to Ryan's front door . I had refused Alex's offer to join me inside . This was matter was Ryan and mine , and we had to handle it ourselves . The ten boxes rested outside Ryan's front door , courtesy Alex . Memories . They flashed through my mind as I walked to the door . His smile , his eyes , his laugh , his words , his kisses …. Fake . Every single thing was fake . A sense of courage that was triggered by my anger coursed through me as I trudged up the porch steps feeling my heart hammer against my rib cage like a woodpecker on high . I stood outside the door a part , of me debating whether I should run away or stay What if he was busy banging some Lindy or some Yolanda right this minute , upstairs in his bedroom ? No , Sophia , shut up . I pressed the doorbell and the familiar ding resonated inside . Add to Library Tick , tock , tick , tock . I could hear the ticking of my watch as the lump grew in my throat . I felt as if Ryan would dump an atom bomb on me once the door would open , like he was USA and I was his Hiroshima , Nagasaki . Just as I was about to turn to leave , the door opened , revealing a very rugged Ryan . He had a scruff on his face and his face was tousled with his usual ' bedhead ' look . Ryan's eyes widened a little before they returned to their normal stare , but his mouth formed into a sly smirk . "I knew y you wouldn't be able to stay away from me , babe . " My eyes narrowed at him , glaring at him . No change at all in this jerk . I took smaller sized box from the stack and shoved it on his face . " Don't get your hopes high , dipshit . I came here to return your crap back , not to have a pansy party so don't you dare " babe ' me because we are never getting back together . Like , ever ." I pulled a Taylor Swift on him ! Some body give me a high five ! I picked another box to shove at his face when Ryan grabbed my hand and yanked me inside the house . And me being the klutz with two cruddy left feet crashed into his chest and dropped the box on the floor as the content's rattled noisily inside . Ryan took full advantage of my lost equilibrium and wrapped his arms around me pushing me against the door as the door clicked shut under my weight . Since , I'm about to be murdered . I would like to say that , I love you Trish , Tango , Alex Blake , Mary " Your'e still the same . " he breathed against my neck as his finger's traced patterns on my neck . I felt my skin crawl under the very touch that not even a month ago made my heart do pirhouette after pirhouette . I tried to wiggle out of his grip but his grip was strong , too strong for my liking . " We will never be over , babe . You will always be mine . " He whispered huskily dipping his head to kiss my soft spot . He knew it was my weakness . " Let go of me . " I demanded , gritting my teeth , not liking this at all . If he didn't leave me right now, then I would be more than happy to barf all over his face . He pulled away from me only to grab a fistful of my hair , I winced as he tugged roughly against the roots . " Don't act bossy with me ! I'm your boyfriend . " I glared at him . " No. What you are is delusional . " I spat . His grip on my hair tightened as he held my chin painfully boring his grey eyes into mine . A chill ran down my spine . I knew things were not going to pretty now . I couldn't recognize this Ryan . He was definitely not the Ryan I had fallen for , this was a darker version of him … more psychotic . My phone rang in my hand and I saw Austin's caller name flashing on the screen . I gulped as I watched Ryan's features harden as I watched him read the username . I knew how possessive he could be . " Oh , so you started seeing other guys too , you w *** e ? " He hissed pulling at my hair . I winced feeling the tears sting at the back of my eyes as I hit the ' reject ' button and pushed the phone in my back pocket , hiding it from the Ryan , the phone rang again , and I silently prayed Austin would stop calling . And fortunately , he did . " You are mine , you little slut . Get that through your pretty little mind . " He hissed as he mashed his lips against mine . I froze , as heat swiveled inside me . Once . Twice . Thrice . I let his lips crash painfully against mine , I could feel blood in my tongue . I wanted to spit but I knew fighting against his iron grip would be a waste , I just had to wait till his grip loosened . I could feel the tears welling behind my closed lids . Ryan's hands pawed my breasts and that's when he slacked . I could feel the rage course through me as I pushed against his hold and slapped him hard across the face . The satisfying smack was enough to confirm that the slap would leave a bruise . * f ** k you ." I hissed wiping away Ryan's kiss and the blood from my split lip with the back of my hand before bolting out of his house , letting a tear escape . Life , I am not your personal comedian , Stop messing with me ! That f ***** g bastard was screwed in the head . My phone vibrated in my pocket . I wiped my tears and opened the text feeling bile rise at the back of my throat . It was Ryan- You will be mine . Yashie How are you doing my lovelles ? Who else wants to whack Ryan ? Raise you hands and let me know !