Chapter 12 I do not want to go to my house right now , I need to be alone . Text Sam . I will not be back tonight , so do not worry . I will be home tomorrow morning , They both know that sometimes I will not be alone , and I have my hidden place , which no one knowNS . Yes . I am secretive , and I like to be like that . I do not like to share everything with everyone . Few things are too personal , I guess . 1 told the driver the address , and he looked at me weirdly , but dude , you are going to get your money , so drive the car and do not look at me . " I thought . In 45 minutes of the drive , we reached a place far away from the city , and he popped the car in front of a small house surrounded by a forest . There is not even a single house other than this . It is a silent place . I paid the driver more than the ride amount and noticed a pleased look on his face . Nodding towards him , I went inside my small house . Once inside , enter the gate and be welcomed by a small garden . I open the door to my small living room , an open kitchen , and one bedroom . the house . I stayed for almost a year . I kept my bag by my side and sat on the couch . Yes , I mass that house , and that is the reason I made this house just like it was there . I try to keep all the colours and the decor the same . Somehow , at gives me a homily feeling . I started laughing at this thought like a manic Which home , Ava ? The one that your husband said is his house , and you must stay there the way he wants ? My mind mocked That house was never mine . He had never been there , Let us not forget the time e when you stayed up the whole night looking at the ceiling , Let us not forget that you never switch off your light due to fear of darkness , Let us not forget the time when you did not utter a single ward for weeks because there was no one to talk to . Let us not forget that no one came when you were burning with fever to take care of you . Let us not forget eating alone , sitting alone , sleeping alone , and doing everything alone . Tears are continuously flowing from my eyes , thinking about my past Apainful past Why , God , am I alone ? Why do I not have anyone I can love't Why do I not have anyone who loves me ? Chapter 12 Am I that bad ? When will this get over ? Why can't you call me Mama ? I want to come to you . Tell me , mama , tell me . I do not want to live anymore . Call me Mama , please . I cry as loud as I can . I know no one will hear me here. Today , at the age of 24 , 1 finally gave up all hope . I hope to live . 1 hope to become someone and make myself proud . I hope to be loved . Blake's entry broke all my strength to the core . Today , his touch awakens the desire I have buried somewhere deep inside m Today , I felt how unwanted I was How unwanted I am ! I still remember the hatred in his eyes on our wedding day . Today's meeting made me feel cheap . It made me feel like someone whom no one desires in their life . Today , I felt cursed I am finally tired . I cannot fight anymore to live . I cried and cried . I do not know how long . Dear best friends , You both came into my life in the first rays of I have never told you , but you both have a special place in my heart and alwa I just wanted to say I love you both from the bottom of my heart . You both are the only ones I have in my life , Thank you so much for always being there with ine Always slune like n star . 1 kept any ploom adde and looked at the stuff in my hand . Tankled looking that . Finally , I am rounlang , mona And I closed my eyes Chapter 12 I woke up hearing a beeping sound . I opened my eyes and closed my back due to too much light , kept my hand on my eyes, and felt pain in my hand . I slowly again tried to open my eyes and look at my hand , which was painting ke a bitch and was connected to so many wires . Wow , so heaven also has these ? I looked around and saw a white room with light blue curtains , and a few machines were beeping nearby . It looks like some hospitals have hospitals as well I was looking at everything and trying to register each and everything nearby me and looking to get a glimpse of my mama or my grandparents , but I could not see them . Where are they ? I thought . Suddenly I heard the urdocked sound , looked towards the sound and saw the person I was not expecting in heaven . What is he doing here ? As far as I remember , he was fit and fine until a few days ago , I was looking at him without blinking my eyes , and he looking at me with hatred in his eyes . " Well , I expect nothing else from you , dad , other than hatred " I thought He came toward me and sat near my bed . If looks could kill , I would be six feet under by now . " How are you feeling ? Did he ask me with his topmost disgust ? I was looking at hum and still trying to understand what was happening here " Theard you are not well , so I thought to see when you would die . Hearing the . I got a tear in my eyes and a lump in my throat , but again , I said . nothing . " If you tried hard , you could've succeeded , but as usual , you are useless and cannot do anything properly . " Dh , so I am alive . I instantly regarded myself as being alive . I am still in this disgusting world where no one wants me . " So , when will your next attempt be ? He asked , blazing in anger . I do not know whether he is sad to see me alive or happy . I cannot even say how delighted I am to see you again. He spoke again , and with that , a small hope I had in my heart that he was concerned about me I wanted to speak , but my throat was completely dry . I cannot even say anything . He got up from his seat and said , " Make sure you do not let the situation come bere I must see you again. " What do you not want to see again . 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