Chapter 12 " Lilian , I'm sorry , I couldn't fulfill your wish to be cremated . " " Whether it was your body , your heart , or your soul , they could only stay by my side . I couldn't bear to let you leave me . " His eyes were full of tenderness as he gently touched the ice coffin with his slender fingertips , as if softly caressing her cheek . Bottle after bottle of wine was poured down his throat , but he didn't feel the slightest bit drunk . Instead , he became more and more sober . The obvious bloodshot eyes and the dark circles under his eyes indicated . that he had not rested for a long time . There was no way Silas could fall asleep . As soon as I closed my eyes , I could see Lilian standing on the river- crossing bridge with a determined look in her eyes . The blurry images in the surveillance footage were deeply imprinted on his mind . He tried countless times in his mind to reach out and stop her , but he was powerless . No matter how many times he tried , he couldn't keep her . The heart had long been riddled with wounds . Silas's eyes were full of desolation as he numbly drank his alcohol and rambled on , " Lilian , you know , every time I hurt you , it also tortures me inside . " Chapter " After each torture , I would go crazy and hurt myself , only in this way could I feel a little better in my heart . " " You see , I have just as many injuries on me as you do . " With that , he forced a bitter smile and unbuttoned his shirt . On the strong and sturdy waist , there were scars crisscrossing all over . Old wounds had not healed , and new ones were added . Not only on the waist , but also on the arms and back , there were dense scars everywhere . Every time he tortured Lilian in bed , he would turn off the lights , tightly gripping her hand , not giving her a chance to notice anything unusual . Every time she felt a piercing pain in her heart , he was also experiencing the same agony . At that time , he didn't want her to know any of these . Because he only wanted to torture her to see her in pain , so that he could feel better . But now , Silas regrets . Did this make Lilian mistakenly think that one - sided torment had any meaning ? Even if it was painful , they should have sunk together forever ! However , no matter how much he said , Lilian could never hear again . She still lay quietly , as if she were asleep . Silas passed out next to the ice chest , surrounded by a pile of empty Chapter 12 bottles . Even though he drank too much , his stomach kept churning with cramps , his face as white as paper , yet he still showed no intention of leaving . He closed his eyes , but still couldn't fall asleep . " Lilian , why can't you just see me in your dreams once ? I have so much to say to you , why are you so cruel ? " Silas looked at Lilian with despair in his eyes , his voice hoarse . Only his voice echoed in the icehouse . He didn't know how long had passed before he finally tidied everything up . With a face as expressionless as an ice sculpture , he walked up the stairs . He found the relic bracelet of Owen and Kailey , which he had thrown from the fourth floor and shattered into pieces . Lilian cared so much about this bracelet that she even gave up her life and jumped off the building . Silas felt heartbroken , but still picked up all the fragments of the bracelet . After confirming that all the pieces were here , Silas took the box to the most famous restorer in the Northside's house . " Mr. Osborne , as long as this bracelet can be repaired , you can ask for anything you want . " He opened the box and placed it in front of Mr. Osborne . Mr. Osborne heard his words , just a little happy a moment ago , but when he saw the small pieces of bracelet fragments in the box , anger surged in an instant . Chapter 12 " Mr. Erelan , are you joking with me ? Although the emerald bracelet is precious , you are not short of money . It's just a matter of saying how much you want for this quality of bracelet . The bracelet is already broken like this , it's too difficult to repair , why bother spending this money ? "