Chapter Twenty -Damian's POV I knew the world around me was falling to pieces that night , broken shards scattering at my feet , and I could do nothing to prevent it . Tears burned at the back of my eyes , an emotion I hadn't felt in years - ever since the moment in my last life when I'd put the barrel of a gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger , choking on the regret of what I had done to Elara . But now , in this second life , everything spiralled out of control ; one disaster barreled into the next First , I'd found Sabrina bleeding in the woods and carried her back , then run into Elara and met that cold , accusing look in her eyes . And then , just when I thought it couldn't possibly get worse , it got worse . I'd been tending to Sabrina in her dorm room , my head still spinning from Elara's clipped command outside- " Take her in . " The way she'd said it , like I meant nothing to her , hurt more than I was willing to admit to myself . I'd tried to explain , to make her understand I was not choosing Sabrina over her , but she'd had me leave . It repeated over and over in my head while I settled the blanket over Sabrina , my hands moving on autopilot . She'd stirred . her eyes fluttering open , and I'd made myself focus on her , on the need to push Elara from my mind . Then Sabrina lifted her hand , fingers curling around my arm and pulling me down toward her . Her lips were so near to mine that I could feel her breath , warm and uneven , and my stomach turned I froze , surprised . My mind scrambled to catch up . Before I could break free , a voice raw and furious - interrupted the moment . " What are you doing ?! " Without thinking I pushed Sabrina back , her head falling back on the pillow as I scrambled to my feet . My heart raced in my chest , and I turned to find Elara in the doorway , her fists clenched , her eyes alight with rage and something else - hurt , perhaps . I flailed my arms wildly , panic rising within " It's not what you think ! Elara , please , believe me- " Just get out , " she said , pointing in the direction of the door . The command had a finality in it , and I was standing there , dumbstruck , my mouth going up and down like an idiot . What could I say ? That I hadn't intended for this to happen ? The rest of it wouldn't matter not when she was looking at me like I was the same monster who'd betrayed her in that other life . Sabrina stirred on the bed behind me , mumbling something that I didn't catch , but I did not look back . I was focused looking for a crack in her resolve , a sign she might listen . There was none . There had been no negotiation ; her finger remained pointed right at the door , unflinching , and the weight of her rejection was crushing I had no words left . And so I turned and walked out , shoulders hunched as I stepped out into the night . ΟΠ Elara , The cool breeze stroked my face , but it did not help tame the storm within . Anger boiled , fierce and bitter , suffocating me till I struggled to breathe . Why did Sabrina continue doing this ? Every time I attempted to salvage things with Elara , there she was , creating chaos and increasing the intensity of the disharmony . - I couldn't help wondering if she'd dragged me down deliberately , hoping that Elara would see . In my former life , she'd put Clara behind bars without a scrap of guilt had she schemed this as well ? The idea gnawed at me , driving my fury as I sent astray rock skittering into the dark . By the time I got back to my dorm , I was furious . I shut the door behind me , and the sound reverberated through the empty room , and I flopped on the edge of the bed . I ran my hands through my hair , tugging at the roots as if that would pull the frustration from my body . Caspian chose the worst possible moment to walk in I caught his reflection in the mirror across the room , and even in the dum light , he appeared uglier than normal . I wasn't in the best of moods , but his sharp jaw and dark eyes appeared warped into something menacing like he was assessing me with each step he made . ■ 15 BONUS " What's with you ? " he said , leaning against the doorframe , arms crossed . His tone was casual , but the gaze he shot me was anything but . It was dirty , and suspicious , like he knew something I was not privy to or worse , like he resented me for something , I shot him a glare , my voice low and rough . " Your sister's the problem , that's what . She's messing everything up , and I'm tired of it . " Caspian's eyebrow lifted , but he didn't flinch . " Sabrina ? What'd she do now ? " " She " I halted on the next word , shaking my fists as the mental picture of her dragging me closer to her came back . " She's making it impossible for me to patch things up with Elara Every time I get close , she's there , leaving a trail of some kind of mess behind her . And tonight- " I trailed off , shaking my head " Forget it . You wouldn't get it . " He moved closer , narrowing his eyes . " Try me . You've been a mess for a while , and Im not blind . What happened tonight ? " I didn't want to tell him . He was her brother , after all his loyalties would always fall with her . But the words came out anyway , too heavy to hold in . I was helping her because she was hurt . Elara noticed me carrying her , and then … Sabrina ducked in to kiss me . Just then , Elara walked in . She thinks hell , I don't know what she thinks , but it's bad . And now I have no idea on how to get her to know I'm not … that I'm not that guy anymore . " Caspian's face remained inscrutable , " You certain it's Sabrina's fault ?" he asked . " Guess you're the one who's always ending up in these situations . " I leapt to my feet , my temper igniting . " And what's that supposed to mean ? Do you think I wanted this ? Your sister's the one who- " Careful , " he broke in , his tone now piercing . " She's still my sister . And you're still my Alpha . But if you're for real with Elara , quit letting yourself get caught up in these ' misunderstandings . He air - quoted the term and I wanted to smack that smirk off his face . instead , I shrank back from it , pacing the room to vent my anger Just never mind , " I muttered . " I have to do this by myself He didn't say anything more , just stared at me from behind that damn suspicious look until I waved him away . When he left , I collapsed back onto the bed , staring at the ceiling , trying to figure out how everything had gone so wrong . Elara hated me again , and I'd been truly and utterly at a loss if it was even fixable this time . The next morning . Caspian's hand shaking my shoulder jolted me awake . His face was drawn , his jaw was tight , and before I could smack him he waved his phone in front of my face . " Why is your newe on the college platform ? !! " he shouted , his voice loud enough to shake loose my skull . " You're dating my sister ?! "