Chapter 1 I'd given birth to nine children for Benjamin Mitchell , but every one vanished without exception before their first birthday . I endured the agony of losing a child again and again . I shattered completely , even developing mental illness . Yet Benjamin stayed by my side , shielding me from all gossipHis eyes reddened with heartache as he soothed me : " We'll have more children . I'll always love you . " I believed him , willingly conceiving our tenth child . Then , when the baby turned one , I caught him giving the child to his new mistress . His buddies joked beside him : " Having such a fertile wife is the best - she just keeps popping kids . " " Benjamin sure knows how to play . Every new mistress gets a baby as a gift . Cars , houses , babies ... They can become a mom without trouble . What woman wouldn't love that ? " Benjamin chuckled , lighting a cigarette carelessly : " They're all young girls . Childbirth wrecks their bodies - I can't bear that . Professional matters should be left to professionals , right ? " Raucous laughter filled the room . Only I stood frozen outside the door , my swollen belly protruding , icy dread seizing me . Chapter 1 Beside them , Kim Hill cradled the baby , frowning in complaint : " Why's it a girl ? " 288 Vouchers Kim tugged Benjamin's sleeve , pouting : " Benjamin , I want another child . I want a boy . I don't like girls . " He pulled her close , smiling indulgently : " Fine . Whatever gender you want , I'll make her bear it . " The child squirmed restlessly in Kim's arms . Kim impatiently pinched its thigh secretly . The baby wailed , only to have its mouth muffled by Kim . She hissed a warning : " Quiet ! " My heart clenched like a fist . I'd dug my nails into my palm until it bled , but I didn't even feel it . I trembled when watching the scene unfold . Kim whined on : " Ugh , handing it over at one year old ? It'll never bond with me ! I want a newborn ! " Benjamin lowered his gaze , brimming with doting : " What do you know ? Infants are exhausting - that's why she raises them first . It can pare you the trouble . " He leaned close and whispered in Kim's ear : " I'd be heartbroken if you got even a single wrinkle . " Kim tapped him coquettishly , A buddy spoke up hesitantly : " But ... what if something goes wrong with your wife ? She keeps having babies , and keeps losing them ? " Benjamin's expression flickered for a moment , but his voice remained flat : 08-4757 Chapter 1 " She's a breeding machine . What's a few kids given away ? If needed , I'll settle down in a few years and let her bear some kids belonged to us as compensation . " Filthy remarks swirled through the room . Someone even suggested I bear more children to please their parents . Benjamin agreed to each request with a smile . My legs gave way and my mind went blank Clutching my six - month pregnant belly , I fled in a panic . When I got home , I locked myself in my room . 298 ( Vouchers I clapped a hand over my mouth to muffle any sound that might escape . The soul - crushing grief I'd endured time and again - all orchestrated by the man sharing my bed , the father of my children ... He'd handed our children to his mistresses , one after another . Every time he had a new mistress , he took another child away from me . This time , the mistress by his side became his childhood sweetheart , Kim . I burst into tears and screamed hoarsely . I beat my belly violently , desperate to abort the unborn baby inside . I had once looked forward to every child Benjamin and I would have . Now , everything about Benjamin just felt utterly disgusting . Benjamin didn't come home until midnight . Chapter 1 288 Vouchers As soon as he walked in , his eyes reddened , and he knelt before me : " Rachel Hill , I'm sorry , the child ... taken out by the nanny this morning , actually went missing ... " Seeing I didn't react , He stepped forward , grabbed my hand , and his eyes burned with urgency : " I've ordered a city - wide search . We'll definitely find the baby , believe me . " This was the tenth time he'd said this to me . The ridiculous part was , every time , he failed . Benjamin expected me to break down , to scream and cry , but this time , just calmly replied , " I know . " Benjamin's eyes widened in shock . Before he could ask about my odd behavior , a phone call interrupted . When he answered , my sharp ears picked up Kim's voice , sweet and coquettish : " Benjamin , little girls are such a hassle . I want the one in Rachel's belly now ... I couldn't hear the rest clearly , nor did I want to . After Benjamin left , I picked up my phone without hesitation and first scheduled the residency cancellation in five days . Then , I dialed that number .