---- Chapter 19 When Philip came to see me the third time, | was sober for a while. In fact, | recognized him and remembered how miserable | felt when my illness flared up. But | had no choice but to pretend. The medicine did put me often in a daze. My memory was getting confused, but | remembered Fiona and everyone. | had been thinking about when my marriage became irreparable. My marriage with Freya was like a track. As long as we moved forward, we wouldn't go wrong. But | was in the wrong way. | thought about it for a long time and it seemed to be because of her birthday. | deliberately let Freya see the dress | was choosing and let her know that | was carefully preparing. That kind of provocation often made me regret it. ---- What was my purpose? It was just that | thought | had hidden well, but she exposed me. Annoyed and hateful, | didn't like the feeling of being exposed. | couldn't turn back. The end.