Chapter 21 " Do you know how hurt I was when I found out about you and Vivian's first kiss , first time in bed ? " " I really tried hard to forgive you , to understand you , to try to go back to the past with you , but you kept hurting me . I am really in pain , my heart hurts so much . Why can't you feel anything at all ? " " How can I forgive you now ? " Her slender fingertips touched his chest , but it felt like a thousand pounds weighing on his heart . Silas was filled with sadness , so upset that he could hardly catch his breath . " I'm sorry … I'm sorry … " Starting over , their positions were completely reversed . At this moment , he finally understood the feeling in her heart when she begged him in the past . Tears kept rolling down Lilian's cheeks , wetting her palms , and her heart ached with each twist and turn . But besides apologizing , he didn't know what else to say . After all , everything that happened between Vivian and me in the previous life was real and undeniable . It was his fault , he was the one who wronged her , betraying the feelings between them . Chapter 21 Perhaps from the beginning , he shouldn't have looked for Vivian as a substitute . The feud between the two families was their own business . But once Vivian , this outsider , got involved , everything changed . Silas remained silent , unsure of how to explain in order to appease her . 288 Vouchers Lilian cried for who knows how long , her tears all dried up , her eyes red , before she pushed him away in silence . " Silas , maybe you have always loved the carefree me at twenty , not the one who was later wounded all over . " " The grievances between the two families can be resolved , but we can't go back to the way things were . That's it , Silas , we stop here . " དགས་ རྐང After finishing speaking , she suppressed all her emotions , slowly got up , and was about to leave . " Don't ! " Silas wrapped his arms around her from behind , his chin pressed tightly against the nape of her neck , his warm breath brushing against her ear . " I have always loved you , whether it was the carefree you in the past or the you afterwards . I deeply love you , it's all my fault . You can hit me , scold me , but please don't leave me ! " " In this lifetime of ours , which is still long , you can punish me however you want , as long as you are always by my side . " He held her hand , trembling unconsciously . Everything from the past life is still vivid in Silas's mind , he really couldn't bear to lose Lilian again . 11.20 Chapter 21 288 ( Vouchers Just as Lilian had left , Silas's grandfather , Steve Erelan , dropped his cane on Silas . His parents , Louis and Ansley , just stood by and watched as he was beaten , even nodding in approval . Chapter 22