Chapter 1- And the award to the most humiliated person , goes to me . Chapter 1- And the award to the most humiliated person , goes to me . I was angry , disappointed and upset . But mostly angry , and you know what happens when Sophia Martell gets angry? She gets talkative , like really really talkative . Not just talk , talkative but " ramble till you are practically incomprehensibly yelling " talkative And let's just say , I was this close to having one of those moments . Different people did different things when they experienced varying levels of anger . get the and Some people like to write down their frustration , some like to eat their annoyance and stress away , some like to cry load off their chest , some like to vent with paints and other mediums and well..some people can get destructive too . Everyone has different ways to cope with distress . But I am different , I tend to rant . My track record of the longest rant has lasted for some good half an hour or so . Not that I time those but it get's obvious after a while that my motor mouth needs to take a break when the person in front of me looks like they'd rather dig a hole and crawl into it rather than listen to me ramble one more second So people usually stay away from me when I get angry . After all , nobody likes being subjected to furious verbal diarrhea for no particular reason But today was different , I was not only angry , I was torn , in a better word heartbroken . Picture this , you are humming happily as you ascend the staircase carrying two bags of food , some good old CD's having your favorite movies , a little wine as you prepare to go to your boyfriend's apartment , to celebrate your first year anniversary . Perfect , right ? Not . Now , imagine the surprise you have to face when you open the door to his apartment , humming , but the melody dies instantly in your lips as cold horror seeps into your bones . Why ? Because , of the fact , that your boyfriend of an entire year is stark naked on the couch having a freaking threesome . How darn thoughtful Of course , a normal human being would get up , fumble in shame and try to apologize and try to suck up to you with the classic " it 's not what you think ." dialogue , but no , instead your boyfriend invites you for a " foursome " . I mean for god sake , that isn't even a proper word . So you stand there with your reeling mind , trying to register that the person you thought loved you prioritized an orgy before your feelings . Anyway , that was me , half an hour ago , and the conversation between us is burned into my mind . Flashback : " Oh , hi Soph , you're right on time , by the way , meet Lindy and Deb , we just got started , come on , join us ! " I stared at him in absolute disgust my mouth hanging open . If my jaw could physically unhinge then it probably would . Words couldn't explain the amount of thoughts that were surging through me . None of them pleasant by any means I had a million emotions coursing through me but at that moment , disgust and anger were a close tie to the top position . I I was appalled , is he drunk ? Or was I drunk this past one year to be with him ? And just to clarify , they hadn't just got " started " oh they were way beyond that . That sick , disgusting bastard . I felt my stomach churn with the sight which lay right ahead of me , it was like walking into a X rated movie . God forbid , I would have nightmares now . " What are you waiting for Soph ? Foursome , would be fun . " I looked at Ryan in utter horror . " Are you demented ? What the hell is this Ryan ? Did you lose some brain cells ? Or are you high right now to even have the nerve to ask me that question ? My right hand was itching dangerously to slap his face . The blonde girls Lindy and what's - her - name at least had the little decency to cover themselves , while Ryan was being quite an exhibitionist . I felt my stomach churn again . If I didn't walk out now , I was definitely going to lose my lunch all over his living room rug . " Come on Soph , you're such a fail .. can't you let go and have fun for once ? " My eyebrows were threatening to shoot out of my forehead , as anger coursed through me , so much that my vision was starting to turn red . He did not .. " Fail ? I'll tell you what was a fail . Your parents meeting was a fall , Your dad's condom leaking was a fail , you scumbag ! " I yelled , my left eye twitching , indicating I was really , really mad . Under normal circumstances , my prim self would have had a panic attack listening to my vulgar threats , but right now , under these circumstances , primness be damned . Ryan , now , " Soph- " ad lost his calm demeanor , he was angry now as well . He had some nerve to even attempt to be offended . " Shut up , speak another word , and I will castrate you and the burn your balls off the face of this earth . Do not come near me . Eve r " I seethed and walked out leaving my bags there in my hurry . Flasback ends . My beagle Tango whined at me feet , sensing my mood and I looked down to look at him , and immediately softened , he was such an adorable thing , at least he knew I was upset . " Ryan , was such a scum , Tango , I can't believe this , I thought he was nice , you know ? I wasted my time thinking that he could be different or he could be the one , I feel so humiliated . " I complained sadly , downing my fourth cup of ice cream . Screw calories . The picture of me and Ryan on the desk beside my couch got a huge wave of sadness and anger rolling in me . I couldn't believe that I meant nothing to him , while I was thinking that he might be my future husband . I felt like smacking myself , naivety was becoming quite a trait in me . I shouldn't even be surprised at this point that someone had stepped all over heart . But it hurt . Again , It hurt because I knew that this was my fate , always . I grabbed my cell phone and dialed Trish , my best friend's number , she was the only person who could listen to my rants without wanting to dig her own grave . I shut my eyes and breathed in trying to compose my breathing as I pressed the device against my ear , listening to the soft rings of her caller tune , finally , after what seemed like an eternity , she picked up the phone . My feelings as always , got the better of me . Heartbreak was pulling me apart so I didn't bother to wait for her to speak as the frantic words tumbled out of my tongue in an all too familiar rant letting out my pent up anger and sadness . " Trish ? You know what ? You were right , Ryan smelt trouble , he was trouble , that bloody ass hat , cheated on me . Cheated on our first anniversary ? I mean what a great surprise gift right ? I was so excited for today , I even cooked his favorite chicken parmesan , for him , for what ? Oh to only find him having a goddamn threesome with two blonde w *** e's , and that douche had the nerve to call me for a foursome . Can you believe the level of nerve this guy has ? That guy called me for a foursome , for god sake that is not even a proper term ! But , anyway I can't believe that he he..he is such a jerk . Ugh , I want to ram something bad up his sorry ass so hard that his founding fathers would feel it . I feel used and humiliated , Trish , I wish I had been sensible enough to listen to you , why do you have to be always right ? And to think , I actually want to cry .. and I thought that my tear ducts were finally getting a well deserved break or something . But considering me , of course that would not happen . Trish , I swear , I wish Satan had a phone number , so I could tell him to take Ryan to hell with him and pitchfork him to the deepest corners of hell , along with those bimbos who were making those googly eyes at him , I would do anything to go back in time and stop myself from meeting that cheating , trash excuse of a human being ….. Trish , what do I do ? I want to crawl into a hole . Why do I always go for men who can't be decent for once and not act like classic class A morons who think less with their brain cells but more with their hormones ? Where are all the Prince Charming's that fairy tales lied to us about ? Ugh , chivalry is dead ! Correction , extinct . Can you come over , Trish ? I really need you . " I finished . There was a long silence , I assumed Trish was taking the new plece of news in . I could hear her breathing in the other end of the line . een smooth " Hello ? " a deep . My eyes widened at once . T..Trish ? I squeaked . voice enquired and I felt my breath hitch . Hold on , a male voice ? said . " Um , I am sorry but I am afraid , you dialed the wrong number . " The guy at the other end s I felt heat creep up to my face . Just when I thought this day couldn't get any worse . All this while , I was ranting to a complete stranger !? Bite me . 1 felt like slamming my head against the table , two humiliations in a row , I was building a record . If there was an award for the most humiliated person , then , it would go to me . … I'm sorry , I .. thought you were my best friend Trish , and , I started ranting because , as you know , I had an extremely bad day . and I was really upset , I am so sorry , to bother you , I can't believe I just did that , you must think of me as an utter i *** t and " Hey , breathe ." Mystery guy chuckled . I stopped and sucked a deep breath , still feeling the heat in my face , my heartbeat ringing in my ears with embarassment and panic . " Oh my god , I'm such a twat . " Imuttered . I heard him laugh at the other end of the line . Sweet baby Jesus , his laugh was beautiful enough to momentarily stop my train on panicked thoughts . " Don't worry , I don't really mind , though I am sorry about your boyfriend he needs a good slap , with a hardwood table . Had I known you , I might have knocked some sense in that boyfriend of your's . " " Ex - boyfriend , he fell from the pedestal , the minute he got busted . " Mystery guy chuckled . " Yeah , sure , I hope you recover.uh … " Sophia . " I told him , there was something about him that , just made me tell him stuff easily , he was calming in a way , I guess . And perhaps that was because he hadn't burst out laughing at my ability to embarrass myself till now and was being mature about it . " It was nice talking to you Sophia , I hope I get to talk to you some other time , but right now , I have to run , I have to take my dog for a walk , she's getting restless as we speak . " I smiled , so he was a dog person like me , I wondered if his dog and Tango would get along . Animal lovers are known sensitive than a normal person , so was this fellow a sensitive guy with a sweet disposition ? Wait what ? Brain shut up , you don't even know this guy , he is an utter stranger for crying out loud . " Uh .. Sophia ? " I snapped from my thoughts . " Huh ? Sorry . I was thinking about something .. I do get carried away with my thoughts .." I admitted meekly . " I figured Mystery guy chuckled . There was a dog's whine in the background . be more " Okay , I have to go now , Roxy might just as well drag me out , bye Sophia . " " Um..yeah , bye … uh ? " I stuttered like a loon . " Austin ." He said , and cut the call , leaving me in a whirlwind of thoughts . Austin Austin … ++ Okayy , so that was the first chapter , did you like it ? Who wants to kick Ryan's balls ? Raise hands and comment please . Anyway, get your views in ! I would love to hear your thoughts on this ! Until next time- love x